Groot apperation post ☆*･゜ﾟ･*\(^O^)/*･゜ﾟ･*☆
Photography. Cats. Food. Whiskey.
The past two weeks have been a blur. Maybe this whole year. I’ve gone from a job I hated, to a job I love, from best friends to strangers, from single to soon to be married and about to be an aunt. So much has happened I can’t keep it all straight. I worked hard to improve and strengthen myself and my being. To embracing positivity and letting go of what was not working and aligning with my core being anymore. But then it fell apart. A beautiful soul passed away and I just felt lost. I’ve hated the world the past two weeks, felt confused and terrified.
I hid. I cried. I shut off and shut down.
I called my life coach in the midst of it all and broke down. I’ve beat myself up, not allowed myself to grieve or be sad. He helped remind me to take a break. Show myself some compassion. And let go. Of what I can’t control and what I can. To be present in my feelings rather than hide. To breathe again. And just at that moment, mid tears and regaining strength, a hummingbird flew by. The first I’ve seen all year. Hummingbirds have been my symbol of my grandma since she passed. My reminder to never give up and that I am fully and completely surrounded with support and love. And there she was, ever so briefly flying by to remind me it’s all going to fucking be okay.
Life’s short. Life’s weird and wonderful and complicated. But damn it’s beautiful. Soak it in and relish in all it offers, the good times and the hard. I miss so many people and so many things but I am so thankful for who I am and where I am. Embrace it. Cherish it. Be present and fucking have fun. Inhale. Exhale. Namaste, goddamnit. Namaste.
Today we lost a beautiful soul. He was one of the most loving, friendly, funny, carefree guys I’ve ever met. I didn’t know him well, but from the time I got to spend with him over the years I knew he was one of a kind. He fought a great fight but now gets to rest and party hard with other legends before him. The world won’t be the same without you, buddy, but I cannot wait to laugh again with you someday.
Rest in peace, Connor ❤️
rebekahannz said: Aww I know you would have. You should come to the wedding boo. September 20th 💖
DAMN! If I had known sooner I really would have been there, no questions asked! I’m shooting a wedding on the 21st in NY and will be flying back from LA late the night before. I wish you nothing but love and happiness with your TRUE best friend. I’m going to find the best wedding gift ever for you, though. So I’ll be asking your address soon enough!
Awww I know boo. We were having such a small wedding like I told you than I realized how so any people suck and so many people don’t and was like I need to just let Paige know how we’d love to have her there even if she couldn’t probably make it now.
You’re a beautiful and wonderful human being and I’m so glad you’re apart of my life. We’re gonna be together again more in future I just know it
Out of the 7 girls I invited for my “bachelorette” weekend, only the 2 planning it ended up not backing out. Last minute. Life happens, things come up, all that.. but having all your friends bail on an event that was all about celebrating you is pretty much the most hurtful.
Nonetheless, I’m glad to be reminded of what and who are most truly important. Shit happens, but real love like I have from these two will never fade.
Disappointed but grateful,
Most people are assholes.
I forget this sometimes. I let people back in my personal bubble. Then. NOPE. Fuck fake and petty people. Seriously.
I’m over being hurt. I’m over giving second, third, hell fourth chances. I’m over longing for love from places that cannot be found.
I have like 4 people in my life I will die for. The rest can figure their own shit out.
Pretty legit finding a headshot you took on a notable restaurants Facebook! Unfortunately didn’t make it on the Tribune bc they let me know too short notice (it was due Monday and they upped to Friday last min!). Nonetheless super proud and excited to see my work out in the city!rebekahzimmerman.com