Me- “I don’t want to sleep.”
Jake- “But think of all those times when you’re busy and stressed at work and all you want is to be in bed.”
Me- “Yeah but now I can only think about work and if I sleep it means I soon have to wake up and go to work.”
Jake- “Just live in this moment. For now you get to do nothing but sleep and rest.”
I’m the luckiest, truly. Inhale, exhale. Live in this moment.
Sometimes I wish I could visit past Rebekah at times of stress or anxiety or depression and just tell her to chill out and trust that everything will work out. All my time and energy spent worrying and having anxiety chest pains are never worth it.
Hey past Rebekah- remember when your heart was broken and you never left your studio out of depression? Remember when you thought finals would be the death of you? Remember when you lost your job? Remember when going on a business trip to NYC scared the shit outta you?
Look where I’m at now. Look who I am. I need to start trusting myself and the universe more. It’s all gonna work out eventually. It always will.
Note to self: start doing yoga everyday again. But like for real.
to make more money
to take more photos again
to start baking
Florida thanksgiving to hurry up
to have the motivation to run more
yoga to be a part of my everyday
to fall asleep before midnight
Jake to stop being sick so we can cuddle
this year to speed up so we can get married
to be skinnier
to wake up earlier everyday
the dishes to be clean
new boots and oxfords
a whole new wardrobe
winter to be over
Teaser from an engagement shoot with the adorable Courtney & Johnny. It was a blast shooting these two love birds even though it was the coldest day of the year. Jake and I made a kick ass team and I’m super excited for how the photos turned out. More later!
Over the last two months of being engaged I’ve learned a lot already. My initial reaction to a ring on my finger meant big elaborate wedding with tons of people. I’ve quickly come turned a complete 180 and scratched all gut reaction plans. I’ve stopped freaking out and started focusing on US and what WE want not what is expected of us.
The more I think about weddings and marriage the less I want any of it. We are typical text book couple who fell in love at first sight and knew on our first date we’d be together forever. But we are also a modern day couple that already lives together and considers that the major turning point in our relationship- not marriage.
I hate traditional values. I want none of it. We want none of that. And I’m finally ready to plan what we so want. A wedding that is free of: religion, my family vs his, me taking on his last name, a big elaborate ceremony/reception and being in debt the minute we start marriage. Hell, we are even considering eloping and then throwing a party later on. Either way it is going to be low key and consist of our closest top 40-50 friends and family, if even that many. It will be laid back and stress free. Woods, flowers, tacos, hot dogs, s’mores, whiskey, beer, dancing, stars, LOVE.
I just want to celebrate dedicating my life to my best friend and enjoy the night with the people that helped us get to this point. I’m ready to start our next chapter and I’m ready to do it our way.
To hell with traditions. To hell with expectations. To hell with marriage. I never believed in soul mates until I met mine and nothing, no ring or paperwork, could change that. I’m his now and forever and our day of dedication will be more beautiful than you can imagine.
Now to find some land and trees and a pick a date! Let’s get this party started!
Governor Dodge State Park, WI 2013
I’ll be dreaming of this weekend for the rest of my life.rebekahzimmerman.com
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